--Wu you; North Sydney Girl High School I remember summer vacation a few years ago, I went to Beijing for the first time. Sitting in a Chinese taxi, taxi drivers with suspicious looking at me with a smile, "where do you come from? "He asked, could hardly contain his laughter. If any ordinary foreigners, this is a very frequently asked question. But as Australia's ethnic Chinese in China, this issue appears to contain a bit of irony. "I am a Chinese! "I replied. This made him smile even more powerful. "HA HA, you're not! Even though you look like Chinese, the past few years, I've seen many people like you. "" I'm not so bad to them, right? "The driver Hey smiled and said nothing. I stayed in Beijing for three months. Although my yellow skin and black eyes can make me quiet and inclusion in society, but spoke, people could hear me right now not standard grammar. They call me the "banana man" or "garlic". On the country's people, I look like pure Chinese, I should be the standard of Chinese. However, as I opened my mouth, they were very surprised. I speak Chinese and overseas "China hand". For Western people have great respect, respect is somewhat excessive. As long as Westerners can speak a little Chinese, no matter how poor they say all say that they are very good, and called them "old China hand". This makes a lot of white, blue-eyed people get carried away. Come to China as long as several months, will be praised by Chinese people as the standard Chinese. And when I'm the yellow skin, black-haired people also used the same standard when speaking Chinese, Chinese widened the eyes. "Where did you come from! "This is all local people raised the same issue. I was born in Australia and grew up in Australia, was a Western education. But I do not want to be Chinese people laugh at me was a "banana man" on Chinese language, culture, history, nothing. I think I can't be a pure Chinese, but I can be a "mango". "The Mango Man" was born in a foreign country, yellow skin intact, while the inside is still a Chinese, and skin color. When I was young, I always feel like it's just a Aussie, after coming back from China, I appreciate China's long tradition of a rich history. In recent years, China's position in the world is becoming, as a Chinese, I was very proud of home. I find that in the search for self, I have a great deal of change. From "banana man" to "the Mango Man" change. In the process of changing, I did not lose yourself, just added a new self.
"Don't you think you're too sorryChinese?" Your Chinese is too bad! "When I took a taxi in Beijing last week, the driver criticized me for that. In fact, the driver is very friendly, but I still have no words: I am a Chinese? Master, do you think that anyone who looks like Chinese must be fluent in Chinese? Do any white man ever speak English? As a second-generation Chinese Australian, during the year I studied in China, I kept having such interesting conversations with various Chinese: "You're back!" Very well, you can see how the motherland is developing! " Have I returned home yet? If I had never been to China, could I "go home"? "What do Australians do to us Chinese?" "Australians don't include Chinese?" If I was born and raised in Australia and my family and friends are in Australia, am I not Australian? Identity crisis Can't just blame China. The so-called identity crisis has been on me a long time ago. Not long ago, my mother reminded me of when I was a child I asked her, "Mom, why don't I be like my friends and classmates?" Why don't you have yellow hair and blue eyes? "In the sixth grade of primary school, because the grammar exam is not good, the teacher of our class actually said to me directly in front of all the students: "Shu Lin, because you come from the Chinese family, you will never learn the most standard English." "I remember how unfair I felt: my grandfather moved from Fujian to Malaysia in the 1930s, and my parents were born and raised in Malaysia. My father's dialect is Fuzhou dialect, my mother's dialect is Chaozhou dialect, because it is difficult to communicate with the dialect we all speak English at home. For me, English is my mother tongue. I'm biased against my teacher because I have an Asian face - and I'm the only Chinese in the class. Before I came to China, I kept those things in my heart. But after meeting Chinese from all over the world in China, I often have the opportunity to talk to them about our childhood experiences. One day, a friend of Chinese-Argentine origin told me that when she was in kindergarten in Argentina, the teacher would secretly give her toys to other children to play with. Her mother was helpless, but she couldn't speak Spanish, and could only give the best box edibox in their fast food restaurant to the teacher. After listening to the story, I couldn't control my tears. I didn't expect to be in a similar pain in another corner of the globe, where I was studying grammar. China's rise is an indisputable fact, which is one of the reasons it attracts so many Chinese. In recent years, more and more Chinese "return" to China. But according to my personal experience, the main reason why the vast majority of Chinese people around me came to China was to find answers. For many Chinese, they hope that the questions raised by their blond-haired classmates, grammar exams and kindergarten teachers will be answered here. "As a foreigner, I'm too 'Chinese' because there's a Chinese face, and I thought that when I came to China, I could quickly solve the so-called identity problem. However, the opposite was true. In 2007, in order to find a job as an English teacher, I was running around Beijing. After thirty interviews, I gave up and went to Hunan to teach in rural Hunan without any choice. Now want to come, I just graduated from high school, no experience, no wonder no one wants to hire me. However, many of my Chinese friends have experienced the same situation, and we all understand the "rules": whether this expectation of "pure" foreign teaching comes from students, parents or the school itself, for many schools, the color of color is more important than teaching ability. They prefer to hire foreigners whose mother tongue is English but do not have a Chinese face. "In theory, if you want to find an internship in China, you'd say that Chinese Chinese should have the advantage, " says Ren Lina, a Chinese-American who grew up in San Francisco. But I know a few Chinese friends, because their faces, not only do not have this advantage, but with less Chinese of non-Chinese than at a disadvantage. She also mentioned that advertisements for white staff were available in Chinese foreign magazines. That way, the company can have a white face appear on the company's website and have the white man accompany them to a meeting, which appears to be high." I had a white friend who resigned from a Chinese educational institution because he found that most of his job was not management, but a "performing monkey". Not only work, but also the relaxation of entertainment, this Chinese face also brought us unpleasant experiences. He Zhirong, a Chinese-American from Washington, told me that one night when he went to the MIX nightclub in Sanlitun with a few white friends, he was the only one who needed to buy tickets. It's not just Ho Zhirong who has experienced a similar situation. This year, when Tan, an Australian-Chinese, went to a nightclub in Beijing called Latte, the doorman asked five white Australians to walk straight into the nightclub and asked him to show his ID. "I don't have an ID, I'm not Chinese. The doorman insisted again and again, "Show me your ID card." In the end, six Australians chose to go to another place. A few weeks later, the police asked Tan to show his passport as Beijing cleared the "three non-" foreigners for a hundred days. This time, he was treated exactly like his five white friends. "To be clear, as a Chinese, I'm too foreign, and as a foreigner, I'm too 'Chinese', " tan said. Tao Wei, a Chinese man from Sydney, Australia, said he had been taking a taxi in Sanlitun one time, but the driver on the side of the road refused to pick him up. It wasn't until he opened the door and talked to the driver and said he was Of Australian, the driver said, "Oh, I thought you were a ghost." I don't pull ghosts. "I'm 100 percent Australian, and i'm a hundred percent Chinese who are willing to come to China. Some Chinese friends once said to me, "I will not go to China!" One of my Australian Chinese aunts can't stand the Spring Festival. A Chinese i knew couldn't even accept her yellow skin and black eyes, so she dyed her hair blonde and wore blue glasses. My former Chinese teacher told me that she was afraid to let Chinese students learn Chinese by singing typical Chinese songs, such as "The Dragon's Passage," "My Chinese Heart" and "We're All Chinese." Because there was a student who was extremely resistant to this: "I'm not Chinese!" Why do you want me to sing such a song? "。 On the contrary, non-Chinese students sing these songs without any problem. I think that all Chinese people have a little bit of doubt about identity, but everyone's "degree" is different, and everyone will face this problem at different times. "I grew up with a lot of Chinese people in San Francisco, so I didn't start thinking about identity until I came to China, " says Ren. In a sense this phenomenon is interesting, and it was only in my so-called motherland that I began to feel the contradiction in this regard. When I get to China, my Chinese friends and I will gather in a dormitory three in the middle of the night to talk about all kinds of topics about identity. Once, Somehow talked about "if there is a chinese into a white medicine, you will not eat." Some people answer "definitely" without thinking, some people say "absolutely not", and some people hesitate to say "don't know". When we watch the London Olympics, we will also discuss whether to cheer on the Chinese team or to cheer on our national team, or what to do if China and our nationality are based in the country. […]